Let the light fall
Instead of putting it there
Untouchable ocean
Breathed in so deep
Water in lungs
Bare ocean floor
Underneath
Where an ugly creature
Smiles beautifully
I can’t do this anymore
I don’t know what I’m fighting for
I bloom so late
They think I’m dead
But I got war
I keep in my head
Bloom so late
Think I’m dead
I doubt that time is linear
I am always dipping back and forth
There is no team effort
There is only me and the pressure there
There are portals in spaces and smells and hair
And if I stumble upon one
I can go anywhere
Colors talk different at different times
With the weather of my mind
No one has to save me
It was me who raised me
And I didn’t create these monsters
But I tame them on the daily
I can’t do this anymore
I don’t know what I’m fighting for
I bloom so late
They think I’m dead
But I got war
I keep in my head
In my head
GUILT DRIP
GUILT DRIP
I can’t do this anymore
I don’t know what I’m fighting for
I bloom so late
They think I’m dead
But I got war
I keep in my head
In my head
Bloom so late
Think I’m dead
War I keep
In my head
GUILT DRIP
JOKE
I wake up into a dream
Cause daytime brings me
Weirder things I
Just don’t know what to believe when
Daylight is the
Dark to me
I just don’t know
What it’s like to not be alone
That’s how it goes
When you’re an imaginative ghost
So I don’t open up that part of me
Here cast and calculate lobotomy
You won’t see me
No I hide, buried
And I still have hope
That I could be much more than a joke
But last time I spoke
Watching paint dry’s all it provoked
So I don’t open up that part of me
Here cast and calculate lobotomy
You won’t see me
No I hide, buried
KEEP PUNCHING
Make up your mind
You’re nearly dying almost all the time
Stay and fight
I’d stay right by you for every night
I’m not alright
I see the dimming of the brightest light
Keep punching
And you’ll hit something
Further than the eye can see
I feel you standing next to me
Keep punching
And you’ll hit something
You were all I want to be
It’s your time now to be free
Take up your time
Go run ahead and leave them all behind
Be just and kind
But save your breath on all the weaker spined
Cocked and shined
I’m not alive so I can feel confined
Keep punching
And you’ll hit something
Further than the eye can see
I feel you standing next to me
Keep punching
And you’ll hit something
You were all I want to be
It’s your time now to be free
kid CONQUISTADOR
I wanted to make
Something no man had made
I wanted to take
Something no man would take
I remember every day when you wanted to play
And I’d look at you and say
“We should do it this way”
I regret it every day
But I can’t change
Discarded
Strange
This one, it’s not the same
Retarded
Deranged
Some things
They can’t be tamed
I remember every day when you wanted to play
And I’d look at you and say
“We should do it this way”
I regret it every day
But I can’t change
Does everyone think they’re ugly
Or is it just me?
How can I believe in
What I can’t see?
Incriminating layers got me bound
Only place I see is underground
If I could spare a whistle for my old town
My tongue would draw sound waves the shape as frowns
The way the moon would look if falling down
And I can’t turn that around
I feel detached from my back
But behind me is all I have
I say “I don’t remember that”
But each day I behave
Like memories are alive
They are there
Are they something that I wear?
Wiggling parasitic in my hair
Whispering behind my jaded stare
Time’s telling me I’m fine but they don’t care
Carry me where? everywhere.
Every waking scene
Every molecule of my being
Every dream
Every motive it seems
With them into a grave I have to share
Oh well!
I wouldn’t be myself if they weren’t there
Wiggling parasitic in my hair
Whispering behind my jaded stare
Time’s telling me I’m fine but they don’t care
BITLESS
I find myself manipulating
People into doing something healthy
I pace and circle it again
Now they think they can’t do it without me
I had to figure out on my own
And now I’m swimming in the unknown
And the water’s clear
If I can’t help the situation
I go round and get out really stealthy
If I had a dime for every
Time they call back
I’d be really wealthy
I had to figure out on my own
And now I’m swimming in the unknown
And the water’s clear
I’ve taken everything that I’ve known
And built this house in which I have hope
And nobody’s here
STRINGP00l
RAFTER
people think they understand me
but they don’t.
saying “it’s sad to see you jumping off the boat.”
people try to give me all this lip
saying “it’s sad to see you jumping off the ship
well i’d rather jump than ask you how to live.
plus, iv’e spent my life
learning how to swim.
I grew up on disaster.
can’t clear the scene years after.
I keep my belt up on the rafter.
try mess it up, I’ll get there faster.
Start a Fight to masterbate
I get off hard on all my hate.
To peaceful beings I can’t relate
Cause human kind’s an ugly fate
RESILIENCE it’s BRILLiance !!!!
I grew up on disaster.
can’t clear the scene years after.
I keep my belt up on the rafter.
try mess it up, I’ll get there faster.
GULL
I care
So now I have to deal with it
you’re where?
to a place you can’t commit.
oh shit?
for months you reassure your word
But you’re not talking to be heard.
you’re always crawling back to her.
Your hand’s on her neck
Hand’s on her neck
you’re taking her back
Tipping it back
again.
If the worst thing about you’s
the people that surround you
They’re not your friends.
If the worst thing about you’s
the people that surround you
They’re not your friends!
you cry
and I can’t get you off my tit.
you lie
and now you’re angry like a bitch
I quit!
for months you reassure your word
but you’re as wholesome as a turd!
You’re always crawling back to her.
You’re talking her down
Talkning her down
but she’s back around.
yeah, she’s back around
again.
If the words that come out you
are substanceless and see through
and you won’t admit,,,
If the worst thing about you’s the
toxins that impound you
then I just won’t stick!
If the worst thing about you’s the
hell you’re digging down to
then i’m not your friend.
to me
you’re dead.
dead dead dead dead!
dead.
you deal with it.
tantrum-
your ego’s flying like a seagull
that crashed in the trash.
you deal
with that.
impairity
impairity-
that’s your clarity.
tell me
the things you can’t think.
denial-
that’s your favorite isle.
fuck it up!
That’s so your style.
why is everything always falling down?
if you can hear me
I hate you now.
I’d kill you.
every time you leave me you come up short.
why can’t you get to the other side
of the door?
falling
into myself.
lost in
my head my body melts.
distance
cause there’s no one else
swallows
me whole and spits me south.
why lackluster love it hangs on my mouth?
my hands are numb
and i’m shaking now.
lasso up my tongue with new doubt.
time will evaporate like my clout.
if you impale me I blame myself.
it’s my own fault that I feel left out.
my own drought.
the other route.
goodbye scout.
you’re mine now.
I’m fine wow.
in time ow,,,,
the draw
it takes
you away.
I hate
everything.
surrounded
open
still in
motion.
the draw
of the dark.
the feel
of the fear.
The pull of
the air love.
we wash up,
exhale,,
resurface
he inhales.
he’s too close to the sea
but he’s too far to be me.
water can reach deep.
violating
drowning me
invigorating, cool.
gasp for air-
waters’’ rule.
if I step to the shore I listen-
and hear it calling back again.
guts are exposed.
the waters of the air.
crawl in there.
contagious
behaveless
you saw the blood.
you noticed your life.
you felt the pain.
you knew you’d survive.
quick to thrive-
the uncontrived,,,